I choose to keep quiet when somethings goes wrong. Sometimes I hurt myself by acting like that everyday. I keep asking myself. Why did they can't realize the truth? Why just me can see? I blame them for no reason. But then when they suddenly invited me into their conversations, slightly by, my heart become softer. Just for a while. And when they did the same thing again, I repeated blame them.
Sometimes I feel like... you know, when someone who you spending time the most suddenly ignores you in public. Yeah damn it's hurt. But is they realize? No. Why? Because I keep shutting my mouth off. How can someone read their friends' heart? Oh you have that kind of friends? So please. I beg you to take care of them because people like them is one in million. Seriously, I dare to say.
I love studying. Since he came into my life. But now I feel like that spirit is disappeared by itself. Hah what I'm talking about? Everyday I'm mumbling by myself whenever they ignore or hurting my heart. No Nabila. You shouldn't be cruel to yourself just by letting them hurting you inside. Well. They never cares about me actually. So why do I must?
Sometimes I do prefer to back to my old appearance. The time when I think that this world is mine. The time when I can do everything that I want. The time when nobody cares about me. The time when I spend most of my time with Him. Eh wait. I can do all of that eventhough I didn't change.
Yes. I have to be more matured now. Thinking the best and more positive for my own future benefit. Alright friends. I'm sorry if we can't be like we always be once upon time ago. But I have my dreams to achieve. I do wants to touch the sky with all of my friends but you do letting go of my hand.
Nevermind. I still holding my principe. I do confidence of myself. Because I know that success will be my goal when I follows my hearts even people around me treat me like a stranger. I do proved it once ago and I will do that again. That's my promise.
*I'm just improving my language in English. Pardon me for any mistakes. Do comment my mistakes wisely.*
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